Catch Me If You Can 
im being stalk… for 14 years of my life… everyday tis person will be at her window spyin on me… opps of my block… there there there… there she go again…
Some time i think confession it only a boys must do… i think sometime girls also plays apart… i think confession in this century… is like the guy will hold the girls hand before he ask for a steady rather then last century people wont even dare to hold the hand before they have guessed… i guess…
I think 2 people for not being together is because i think they both dunnoe if the other like them anot… waiting for the other party to move…
Tried Better Then Not Tried..
Of cause some things can’t be rush..
ha… my ring finally reach… from uk… hahah…
As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for
I’m sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect
I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry I’m not always there for my sons
I’m sorry for the fact that I am not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I am so proud to call you my girl
[Bridge]
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can’t apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me
[Chorus]
You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me
Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn’t agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief
I’m sorry that your son was once a thief
I’m sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry your life turned out this way
I’m sorry the FEDS came and took me away
[Bridge]
I’m sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I’m sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
Enter 21 you know the club they say
Why doesn’t anybody wanna take blame
For rising back out disgracing my name
I’m just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I’ll take that blame
Even though the blame’s on you [3x]
I’ll take that blame from you
And you can put that blame on me [2x]
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
Today is racial harmony day… army oso will celebrate de… today the whole battalion watched Hotel Rwanda… it’s a true story happen back in 1994 where there’s tensions between the Hutu and Tutsi peoples lead to a civil war in which the Tutsis are massacred because of their light skin and their past allegiance to European colonists.
It’s quite a meaningful movie la.. u guys sld watch…
I think singapore did a very good job in racial harmony… it order to prevent any more civil war and conflict between other race… children had been brought up livin with different race… studying together… understandin each other…workin with each other…
In the workforce.. we all know the mud are alittle less hardworkin and may stir problem… some but not all… job like pple in blue are usually them… so tt those when young kids see them in action they will tot of… wow… once i grow up… i wanna be just like them… inorder to prevent them go side track…
pple in green oso… you dun find them in the red and the black… there’s a reason for it… u only can find them in the khaki.. the blue and the green… in order to give them some motivation… the khaki are almost as tough as the red… so they all can aim of wantin to get in the khaki…
Any way… Happy Racial Harmony Day…
I won’t talk
I won’t breathe
I won’t move till you finally see
that you belong with me
you might think
I don’t look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I’m attatched to you
mmmm
I’m weak
it’s true
cause I’m afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster
[chorus]
I’ve waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
i’ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life I’ve waited
this is true
you don’t know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I’m afraid to move
I’m weak
it’s true
I’m just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you met me
[Chorus]
I’ve waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I’ve waited
this is true
I know when I go
I’ll be on my way to you
the way that’s true
[chorus]
I’ve waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I’ve waited
this is true
who am i?
You are who you are…
who do i wanna be?
You yourself
who is in my life?
who supports me?
Your legs? haha…
who are my friends?
3 actually… Me, Myself and I…
who are the ones that truely care?
3 also… Me, Myself and I… haha..
who says i dun think?
Yourself…
who says i dunno u guys gave me alot of chances to study?
Yourself…
who says wad?
You say wad..
am i myself?
If you think you are you are..
am i u guys?
Nope… you are yourself… I am myself..
am i just another bitch?
Oh no… not just another bitch… Yellow Sexy Bitch… lol…
am i a slut?
Ya… maybe because you’re dark.. so look dirty.. but i know you are not…
am i cheap?
Nope… priceless…
am i who i wanna be?
am i wad i wanna be?
wad do i wan?
wad is life?
Is to make this place better or even better then you 1st arrive to this world..
wad do i aim for in life?
You must be the change you wish to see in the world..
wad is a need and a want?
The different between need and want is that you prioritist less in need but more in want..
wad are my needs?
wad are my wants?
wad am i really thinking bout?
Ask yourself
wad is my true personality?
Friendly and humanitarian
Lively, Honest and loyal
Original and inventive
Independent and intellectual
Like to be different
wad is my true identity?
why am i always living for others?
why do i put my life in others?
why do i believe in wad others say?
why must i live ur dream?
why must i be your puppet?
why must i listen?
why must i disobey?
when can i stand for myself?
when can i learn to make decisions?
when can i be considered an adult?
when am i considered as matured?
when should i do wad i wanna do?
where is my home?
where is the home tat was happy and peaceful?
where did that place ever so comfy go?
where is all the care and love?
where are my family?
Right beside you..
where is everybody?
or isit
where am i?
how am i gg to survive thru my time without them?
how do i make them understand i wanna study?
how do i make them realise i’m old enuff to make certain decisions?
how do i make them realise i can take care when i’m out of the house?
how do i make them realise i’m not saying that xx is old?
how do i live the life i wanna live?
You choose the path..
how do i talk to them nicely when they dun?
how should i react when they start interogating me like i’m some criminal?
hahaha… today mark the 1 year of my army life… still remember vividly last year tis date… the 1st day of army… friday the 13th… goin thu tt gate… lookin at the camp… wonder if is very tough… all the trainin and tt…
Takin the pledge… gettin our army stuff…
1st 3day of the army is ok… it was only the 4th day… mon… tt’s when the hell start… all the trainin… all the runnin… all the aching…. cougar… was one of the hell company… didnt know how i manage to complete the bmt… and the hell field camp… it’s really hell man… i believe some of us cry silently in their heart… even i oso… haha…
Anyway… 302 DYAS TO ORD!!!!!!!!! hahaha…
Fuck man… my G String broke… not the one for wearin but the String on my cello… have to down and buy string liao… another 30 40 buck gone… hai….
I remember the times we spent together
On those drives
We had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York
Everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
Tonight
I remember the days we spent together
Were not enough
And I used to feel like dreamin’
Except we always woke up
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much
Tonight I’ve fallen and I can’t get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn’t wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus
And how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad
Sometimes not having you here
I sing
Tonight I’ve fallen and I can’t get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
I sing
Tonight I’ve fallen and I can’t get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
You’re scared
It shows
Been there
You’re not prepared to be
In love
With me
So soon cause you’ve been through enough to have
Something hold you back
We don’t need to go that far
Let’s hold on to where we are
If it’s real we’ll make it through
Cause all I need is you
They say
Don’t waste
Your time
They’re obviously blind
So let’s
Forget
The words the thoughts they put into your head
Don’t give up just yet
We don’t need to go that far
Let’s hold on to where we are
If it’s real we’ll make it through
Cause all I need is you
We don’t need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I’ll hold on too
Cause all I need is –
Baby, maybe we should start somewhere
Baby, let me in your heart
Before we fall apart
We don’t need to go too far
Let’s hold on to who we are
If it’s real we’ll make it through
Cause all I need is you
We don’t need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I’ll hold on too
Cause all I need is you
All I need is you
All I need is you
Haa… playin with webcam… I’m lovin it… lol…
Smiles and her laughter
It’s the only thing that I’ve been waiting for a time
Wa… tin i kanna Gastroenteritis, GE, keep shitin man… tin the SFI food really got problem.. i shit 2 time yesterday la… and 2 3 time today… hai… hope no more later…
Weird rite… i actually bump into 8 pple jus today alone… haha…
Went out today with a good friend of mine… early in the morning when goin to meet her… while on the bus at xinmin… i saw some one familiar while gettin off the bus from the upper deck… im below the stair at lower deck… then i saw… is tt xinhui? is tt her? then she turn around… yeah is her… lol… she went church with mum and bro… lol… sld have go upper deck la… wasted sia… haha…
Then we went far east… coz she wanna go shoppin… nobody pei her so i pei her lo… haha… we walk aroung and around and around… she buy tin like any how buy 1… jus grab and buy 1 wa lao… lol…
Then we were at tis 3rd floor dunnoe wat shop… met sgt zhi hong… Then we went to tis shop… coz last time came here nv get anytin… but my rest of my click did… their shirt quite funny de… then i saw this shirt… it say… “Trust Me… I’m Single…” with alot of kisses… wanna get tt but dun have my size so nv… hai..
then went back to tt shop again saw sgt zhi hong with jacus and li kun… then we go eat at kfc… wanted to try the new BK burger de… but seem like no BK around so eat kfc lo… is like everytime we go out i like eat BK… last time oso like tt… lol…
After finish eatin… she still wanna walk… so we walk another round lo… then come to the shop again… met another sgt… sgt hui xing… she saw me… but i cant see her… too short ba… oops… haha…
Then we left for city link mall… dunnoe wat she say there got dunnoe wat shop… we walk until new urban male.. go in and saw another guy i know… lol… then we went MS… walk walk walk around then i say Raffle City there got Ben & Jerry then we went there… coz we come out is go eat ben & jerry de… jus pei her walk walk only… haha… the monent she there got ben and jerry she was like so high… ok ok let’s go… lol…
So we went back to Raffle City… went Crumple see 1st.. and went ben & jerry eat… she ordered mango mango while i ordered sweet cream and cookies… then i jus remembered i haven draw money yet.. have to have her pay 1st… hai…
Tis is my 1st time eattin ben& jerry.. heard their ice cream are alittle sweet… and ya… really a bit sweet finish eatin.. then we stone there watch movie after my itouch watch half way then we go le… go draw money then she say still wanna buy her shoe… so we went to bugis on bus… lol…
At bugis de converse.. she got her shoe and i saw 1 shoe quite nice… but the base color is white.. which i dun like… so nv buy..
Went to take bus… on the way tt saw xiu ling… but guess she nv saw us… At bugis street… she saw watches… so we went it and get 1… once again… she like nv try then wanna get liao… wat the… haha… sld have jus pay for her watch… coz i tin watch got alot of meanin de… lol…
Then we went out to wait for bus at the bus stop… funny things is a girl look at me.. then i tot is the guy ask her to look at me… so i look at the guy.. a… chang yong… lol… long time no see le… chatted awhile… tot him about the fusion thingy…
We board the same bus together.. and went home… went upper deck but no more seats so went down to lower deck… the 4 of us stand together… after awhile got 3 seats le so we sat down and his girl friend… then awhile more got some more seats we shift in so tt chang yong can sit… then we got off at seng kang…
im glad tt we took the bus… wont 4get ^^ it’s been a long time le…
Total Damage
9 Bangles $20
Hair band $1
slipper $12.90
Converse shoe $56.05
Watch $5
$94.95